EXAM BLUES

i hate exams....as in I HAAHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAAAAAAAAYYYTE (pronounced the way Jim Carrey says Wehehehhehehehhehehlll in Ace Ventura) exams...
its not the thing bout having to study..its the damn process of writing it..i mean is'nt it enough that we study the stuff?why do we have to like write it alllll over again?don't they trust us?
another thing bout exams in i cannnnot sleep without atleast staying up half the night..if not the whole nite.i would'nt even b studying..i'd be reading nothing related to study material, or i d b talkin to friends or sometimes jsut even staring into space...and its not like i get distracted while studyin and do these stuff..i just do all those..intentionally..just knowing that i ve stayed up all nite the nite before the exam gives me this strange sense of confidence..weird..
but yeah sure falling asleep during the exam is a whole different thing.its only half due to no-sleep..the other half is due to plain boredom..there are when i ve been reduced to tears of boredom in d exam hall..
i dunno y i just wrote all this..i was thinkin bout all this during my last exam(that is, before i fell asleep)
exams sux!! >:-(

stuck in the middle...thats wat i am now...actually i m not even stuck..its like i m slowly vanishing from the middle..imagine how blaah it wud b if u really wanna stay visible but u cant help turning invisible?and noone notices that ur fading..brrrrrrrrrr..
actually it wouldnt be that bad mayb..mayb there d be other forgotten invisible souls walking bout and then all of us inivible ppl can join together and form a community...wat if they too start ignoring each other...wat could b beyond invisibility...
yeah ok i m not drunk or high ( though i mite b a lil high on chocolate..im not sure)just been doin sum thinking lately (yes-out of the blue)
or mayb i m just bored....possible..thought this was gonna turn out nice..dunt feel like continuing..ill sum it up with the opening lines of a rap song created by me n sam..
"Life is such a drag,
It makes me wanna gag"

amen.

have u ever felt u ve had to grow up all of a sudden?its crazy...my post grad life started just a few weeks ago and its like..everything is different now..its no longer the old blaaaaah sorta life..i mean yeah sure at times it is..but then..so many changes..so fast..
ppl start treating ya like an adult.its crazy..i mean im still the same person..how dus a coupla years make a difference?
kids feel like kids..time seems more short..life just looks a lot more plain serious.....is this wat growing up is all about?i know its weird talkin bout growing up at 21..but trust me..if u know d person i am u 'd know wat i mean.........i ve been fighting growing up all this while..now..sumhow..its sad..but not too bad..boring..but i think i can adjust!! ;-)
besides..everyone can b a kid every once in a while cant they?

farewell...

well...its that time now..finally...i ve been waiting for this for a looong loong time..to get outta this place..leave behind all the crap i ve been goin through..forget all d mess i ve gotten into...and well that time has come and somehow......yeah yeah u know wat i m gonna say...somehow all those stuff seem really really small now...i really dunt wanna leave..i'm comfortable here..i dunt wanna go to a new place n start all over again..i dunt wanna leave my friends..i wanna see all those familiar faces..and my class..i used to haaate going to class..but i dunno..i'd give anythin to continue goin to that classroom and doin wat we alwayz do..absoultely nothin...i know i wunt get a life which is soo easy going n relaxed ever again..sure there had been stress,tension,work loads..but c'mon..there has also been fun..sooo much fun...and u know wat the moooost annoying part is..just wen i m about to leave i meet all these amazing ppl and i m like oh godddddddd..why cud'nt i have met them earlier..now i m gona have to miss them too...
three years of whining complaning cursing....
three years of chilling,freedom(frm home),doin crazy stuff,flirting
three years of slogging,pulling all nighters,passing notes in class
three years of....i dunno...the best three years of my life is drawing to an end.......
all my friends r gonna go in to new colleges now n make new friends(i hate those new friends of urs already) i'm gonna miss u guyz...u made my life so much fun...i ll never forget the times we shared..and i thank u all for bein a part of my life...mayb it hasnt alwayz been all that smooth..but i dunt regret having met any one of u...I wuv u alll...*sniff sniff*

i me myself

u know how before u post a new thingi u have sum idea wat it is ur gona type?i really dunt..and yeste i accidentaly admitted to my friend that 'i do not think" to which she whole heartedly seemed to agree....oh by the way..to my greatest pals n roommates..i wana thank u for the surprise bday party yeste...although ur 4 months late..and i did guess d surprise already(i repeat..the Queen of surprises Cannot b surprised!)..it was realy sweet of u guyz..and i luv cake so that sums it all up.. ;-)
dont u just hate old keyboards...i hate wen i click n the words dun come out d way i want it to..or mayb im just still half asleep n i m just blamin the keyboard..hmmm..
sumtimes i think i m d most self centred person on earth...i mean just look at the number of "i"s in this blog...i m gona write bout other ppl frm now on...like...................................................................................................................................................
oh chuck it...its MY BLOG.. as in allll mine..so i can write wateva i want in it..... ii ii i ii iiii i ii i IIIII IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII IIII II I I iii i ii iiii
so there...

singles ROCK!!!

hello helloo..its been a while...hmmm anywayz..one of my friends read my blog yeste and said i shud b a famous novelist...okay so she dint say famous..but okay..and she was reading this book by ellen degeneres..u know the funny lady?the Ellen show?the voice of Dory on Finding Nemo?okay so she was reading it and she said it reminded her of me....and im like flattered...i read that book..or half of it and oh my god...its one of those rib tickling, punch the pillow..jump up straight snort and laugh kinda book..okay so maybe not that much also..but yeah..and being thought of wen ur readin a buk like that is..well mayb not exactly a compliment..but i cudnt care less..i m flattered....
ahem ahem..so its THAT time of that year again...the big 14th...and basically my viewz on that day can b expressed in one work....YUUUUEEEEEEEUCKKK!!!!VALENTINE'S DAY SUCKZ!
i mean watz tha deal,man?like ppl need one day to get all koochy kooey and mushy wushy...like they dunt do that and irritate the rest of the population the other 364 dayz..and sure ppl say its not all about guy-girl relationship but heyloooo u have got days for all the other ppl(eg:father's day mom's day, doctor's day,postman's day,hairy guy living down the street who picks his nose in public's-day)its like wen ur best guy friend buys a HUGE teddy bear for his girlfriend and wen u ask him bout ur gift he sorta tears off one arm of the bear n hands it to ya.."see,i thought of ya too..this is urs too.." oh gimmi a break....
why is there no SINGLES DAY????where singles can do all their fun stuff???I DECLARE THIS FEBUARY 14TH AS SINGLES DAY!!
ALL U SINGLES GO OUT THERE AND THROW STONES AT COUPLES!!
alrite alrite so mayb i m just crabby cos i m single...but i still think there shud b a singles day....
anywayz....SINGLES ROCK!!!!

sniffles

so here i am back in college..yay yahoo wawawhooom...n i m so tired of puttin my college down..i mean sure it sux and sure i m sick n tired of it but not like i can doa nythin bout it rite?so far college has been exactly the way it has been 4 the past 2 ana half years..blah..i thinks its cos mayb im the sorta person who gets bored real fast..anyway i dunt even have anythin to write in this blog..i just figured its been a whi...*sneeze* excuse me..been a while..so laddat..noone really looks at my blog anyway..here i go again...whine whine whine...
things havent exactly changed around in college..but sumhow i think i ve changed a bit..like just a few dayz ago a girl called me "a box of creativity" lol..okok so mayb i m just boasting..but that was one of the nicest compliments anyone'z every given me..if that girl is reading this..luv,u made my day...
anyway..i ve come back to college a lot more...i dunno...grown up i guess...i dunt let tiny lil stuff bother me much anymore..i dunt think i m very sensitive anymore..but i am still very dependant on others...ok wateva...i ve got a cold..and its gotten to my head...so i dunt even know wat i m saying..i hate colds...y dunt things flow up rather than down?such a pain...
this blog aint nuthin great...just time pass...