Saturday, August 8, 2009

Baby Blues


I have the baby blues. As in I really think I need to have a baby. Right now would be a very good time for me to have a baby. I mean sure, I'm not married yet. I'm not even sure if I'm at the legal age to have babies. There is one, rite? Legal age for baby production? Anyway, why I said that this is a good time is cos I've been around babies for so long that nowadays when I watch ads with lil babies in em, I get this whole maternal thingy stirring inside. I'm all like awwwwwwwwww..not the normal regular aw cute...this is the drawn out, longing, wistful awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww *sigh*. Sometimes I even tear up. Now this can't be a good thing. And it just means that I need to have a kid. I'm not ready for marriage sure...but kids, i think i can handle it.

Some people have this calling. And all this while I was confused bout what mine is. Now I'm thinking, its most defnitely gotta be sumthin to do with kids. Cos, man I'm seriously good with em. I mean, I used to like kids ok. The regular amount. I even used to tell some people that I dunt like kids cos I didnt wana seem like the girly girl coochie coo baby luver (I'm not. I dunt go all "coochie coo" shit.. I'm all like Sup Baybeh!) I've been babysitting ever since I was 13 or so. Its just recently that people has been tellin me Im sooo good with babies. And thats when I realise I shud test these super powers of mine. Every new baby is a challenge. People think its easy to win over a baby. Trust me, its no easier than winning over a pretty girl. (but yeah its almost as easy as getting a guy to think ur interested)

So nowadays, every baby I see, its like I just haave to make em like me. I'm like the baby playa. But i don't play with their feelings and not call them after I say I will. Or atleast I try not to do dat. Once, I'm pretty sure where I stand with my baby skills, maybe I'll think of doing something with it.

When I paint or draw or read n stuff, sure it makes me happy. But when I'm with a baby, and that first smile it flashes at you as a sign of "ok-ur-in", man...that smile can just turn your heart into pulp. Thats like a whole different level of happy.

When people think bout babies, the only thing they talk bout it dirty diapers...and sleepless nights. I mean c'mon..there is soo much more to babies than that. People who has never really dealt with babies won't really know this cos they rely on 2ndory info and hear just bout the 6 kilo diapers and 6am feeding time. They don't hear bout the smile that I told u bout earlier, or the warmth u feel inside n out when they fall asleep on ur chest, or the pride you feel when they choose to run into ur arms when they're scared, or bout how hard you laughed wen they make that funny face wen they poop, or how you heart breaks when their smiles crumble into tears when you wave goodbye......

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Okay so i got a lil too senti there... I told u, the whole maternal thingy is getting to me.

So, basically what I'm tryin to say is...well I'm not sure. I just wana dedicate this post to my niece n nephew...my number one babies...miss u guys soo soo much. Now I actually get what Saif Ali Khan was talkin bout in that ad when he said "I miss u so much..it hurts!"

oh and mwah mwah to all the other lil babies out there... Sup Baybehz!

6 comments:

Samiha said...

awwwwwwww..(the wistful drawl)..
I ttly get you, man..
Imagine one tiny person who thinks you are the centre of the universe and beyond (at least for the first ten yrs of his/her existence)..and then, you get to know the quirks of the unique individual lurking behind the cute innocent face. Sometimes, one's calling is to be a mother. I think you have struck the jackpot.

P.s: Brilliant piece of writing.

Your eternal fan

Anonymous said...

goodluck with being supermom / super babysitter . But don't forget to let go when they grow up .

~Ms. A~ said...

@sam - mwah..thank u thank u. u really got wat i m talkin bout.u d best.

@anoymous- ooh letting go is gona b the toughest part. i can even imagine sending my nephew to school alone someday..brrr scary!

Vijay said...

Well its nice... i guess u will make a good mother... I liked the last part about how proud you would feel when the kid would run into your arms when its scared. Or when its crying out loud and it al of a sudden sees you and smiles...

I used to play with others kids who i see in the malls and all, until mom told me people dont like it. I was in a supermarket once,when a small kid was roaming around crying.. apparently he couldnt find his parents. I picked him up and he didnt push me off or anything, he looked at me with this funny "who are u" kinda look.. and th next thing is he grabs my glasses... He seems to like it and plays with it. And then we're walking around tryying to find his parents while he's pulling everything i had in my shirt pocket. And when i reached a special place,he stated pulling away.. i looked around and there were chocolates around there..i pulled out two bars and wow, he wants both.. and there we see his mom coming around looking for him. I handed him over. She had been terrified and now quite relieved and thankful, i could tell...

And this was the sad part, she walked away with him and he was looking back at me with a hand outstretched towards me..he had one of the chocolate bars in his hand... i did tear a bit, but then i looked around and turned and walked away..

sorry for making it so long... wondering if my comment is longer than ur post.. sorry :)

keep the maternal feelings safe inside you, the world of kids definately needs a good mother like you..

cheers..

~ machine...

~Ms. A~ said...

whoa...the moment i saw ur comment thats wat i said...lol yeah it was pretty long but hey..i guess u really got wat i was talkin bout :-) thanks for reading. and its rare to find a guy who is sensitive bout stuff and actually admits it..good 4 u,man. keep reading!!

Vijay said...

:D